Just because we have the balls and dick doesn’t make us impenetrable or giving us the “priority” to have the whole world on our backs. The phrase always goes “you’re a man”, and what comes behind this phrase are always words of responsibility for being someone with the balls and dick, “you do it”, “it’s nothing”, “you can take it”. Whenever we say no, can’t do, we get mocked as “pussy”, “not a man”, “wimp”. Yes, i know lots of people wouldn’t mean it, so i take it as a passing phrase, but after hearing it like forever, it fucking gets the shit outta me. So people who always think man/guy/boy can carry the world on our backs, why don’t you imagine us fucking crying like a kid when the problem knocks on our doors. Imagine us this way and not some hero which we’ll handle everything. People do say things and realise it hurts us but upon thinking we’re the man, they think we can take it. Tear/rip my face apart and see the sorrow underneath it, that’s where it’s hidden. RIGHT BENEATH. Right at the moment we hear something hurtful, i mouth the word fuck and put a smile on my face. That’s how fake it goes, people with the balls are entitled to some crying time too.

Caleb Wong Wen De (2008). MINE. Retrieved January 6, 2008, from http://pesky-pussy.blogspot.com

I feel that this post by him is good. Guys do have the right shed tears. We are all humans. Just that we might be stronger, but that doesn’t deprive us from the right to cry. We have weakness, we have soft spot. Caleb, sometimes I think you can be the next xia xue or whoever. haha. Meet up soon!

I don’t wish to play guitar recently. Even if I touch it, I will put it down when i didn’t nail a solo or I cant catch the beat or rhythm. Suddenly, I just don’t want to touch it anymore. Losing motivation. How? I need to carry on. Cheeeb. My drawing for webgra totally suck balls. I think it’s not nice but well, our theme is kiddy so should ok. Last night when night cycling with Clarence. The ride of hilarious and fun. It’s totally a tiring journey man. It’s been so long since I cycled. I think I need to stop listening to metal songs for quite a some time before i regain my motivation to play guitar. FUCK! What happen to my passion? I can’t lose it. Pls wake up. And I don’t want to scream!!! Spoiling my voice box. One day, you will know who is always there for you.

“Pull harder on the strings of you!”