This morning I’m so flustered, so guilty, so tired, so lonely and so busy. Everything is moving past me at high speed. I need to catch up, I need to buck up and I need to move with them. But I can’t and I’m tired. I need to slow down. But everything seems to be accelerating. Like rockets! But you make my surrounding and environment calm down. You make peace in me. Your tranquil msges. Though I cant hear you but i can feel your placid voice. You are slowing things down for me. Thank you.

“Cheeky green monster.”

Sometimes I just let “lazy, tired, no mood” these words to be my excuses for not doing something. I feel super bad last night for flaring with my friend over school work and postpone the cycling trip with another of my friend. I feel like so fucked up. Seriously. I blamed him for being too anal over school work but the fact is he is doing this not only for the sake of himself but us too. We are a group. I’m totally letting this laziness of mine overcoming me. The work now is so overwhelming. I guess we are just stressed and fucked up. Whatever it is, I need to say a big sorry to JEREMY TOH ZHEN TECK for the quarrel we have and please dont put my words in your heart cause I dont mean it. It’s all words of anger. Give me a day to refresh myself and let’s work hard for the rest of the assignments. Once again, I’m truly sorry. (:

“I’m messed up shit!”